Missing Her

Now that summer is upon us and Dreyson is out of school, I can't help but wonder how different things could have been if my babies were able to spend time with my mom? I looked over at Addison earlier today and saw her making a face that my mom made all the time, it made me smile, even giggle to myself and then I wondered had she met my mom in heaven before God gave her to us? Years before she was born, my mom had a dream that we spent the holidays together and we had Dreyson as well as a baby girl...could she see God's plan for us because she passed three weeks after that dream. I miss her more than I could ever imagine and swore time would stand still, but I look up and have an 8 year old son and soon to be 2 year old daughter and only have God to thank for getting me through such a great loss. I have managed to make great friends who are willing to listen to me talk about her and let me cry, no matter how long she's been gone. I can't wait for both kids to be truly old enough to listen to stories about her and understand just how special she was. For their sake (mine too) I must be sure that they know ALL of their family, blood and the ones we've "adopted" along the way, through their stories her memory will live on.