Feeling Guilty?

For the last few months we've been hoping for an assignment and all but, "put every egg in one basket" trying to get away from Moody AFB. Well, we still haven't heard anything and the hubs decided to "up the ante" by applying for a few special duties. Since a true application is involved, we've been on "pins and needles" (or at least I have) while waiting for some sort of communication from these organizations. I want nothing more than to leave here so I can get back to work and contribute to our savings account growing, jobs in the area are less than appealing and I've been working hard to get my degree and want to be paid more than just gas and daycare $$. Feelings of guilt come into play because I think I want to leave more than my husband does and if he doesn't get picked up I'll feel like it's my fault since I asked him to get us out of here :-( I pray every night for God to show us the right place, but I am a creature of instant gratification so the waiting is KILLING ME. Hopefully we'll hear something soon, but the end of September can't get here fast enough!