A Mile A Minute

For the past few days I feel like my mind has been going nonstop, from family vacations, upcoming birthdays, and possible deployments to homework, housework, and everyday life...there is no time for ME. I'm pretty sure Addison is going through the infamous terrible twos and Dreyson is coming into his own and has had a slight attitude as well, so frustrated is the best word I can use to describe myself :-/ I've been taking classes constantly, with pretty decent grades, but this time around I think I've gotten the most overzealous online instructor who grades every assignment like her life depends on it...so on one hand I feel like I may have been cheated out of "good" instructors in the past and on the other hand, I'm aggravated with the fact the my GPA is going to suffer this term because she is satisfied with NOTHING. The hubs and I are hoping for an assignment out of GA and if we aren't worried about that enough, he comes home to tell me that a possible deployment is closer than we thought...In my mind I feel as though I go out of my way to make/keep everyone in my life happy or content (at the very least) and lately I haven't felt like the people around me are willing to return the "favor". Is it human nature to want to stop being so accommodating or should I feel bad for expecting the same treatment in return? I know people say, "to whom much is given..much is expected" and we were over the moon when B added a stripe, but it seems like he's NEVER home and when he's here he's still working, how can I help him find a balance between work and play when I struggle to find balance for myself? It hurts to see the kids so happy to see him at the end of the day and all he can do is fall asleep on the couch while I'm screaming on the inside for a break of my own. I feel so selfish sometimes, realistically I'm sure these are all the feelings of this thankless job called, "mom"...